Obsession

Is it an Obsession or an Addiction? “Kiss me twice, I am schizophrenic .. Kiss me ten times, I am obsessive!” -  مد عمارة

Growing up,

I knew I had an addictive personality.

I'm not going to say I am some kind of Genius,

because I knew at the age of nine,

that the things I liked in life,

I would obsess over.

But,
like all my
Obsessions 
or
Addictions
when I was younger
the only cure for them,
was to get another one.

At the age of nine I awoke one morning

and decided I was no longer going to eat Ketchup.

That may sound like something foolish,

for a child to feel he is addicted to ketchup,

but where I come from,

ketchup went on eggs,

hot dogs,

sandwiches,

fried chicken,

steak,

and even to thicken up tomato soup.

I gave up ketchup for the next five years.

I use Ketchup today,

but my thinking back then,

at the age of fourteen was,

I could beat any addiction I came across in life.

"I am obsessed with not being obsessed with acquiring material things." - Mokokoma Mokhonoana.

I know,

you hear the word

"Addiction"

and you start thinking about

"Drugs & Alcohol."

I quit smoking pot in the early 1990s

and quite drinking in the early 2000s.

But it took until my

"Retirement,"

for my Addiction or Obsession to own everything I liked,
to become relevant.

 “Once you start recognizing your own obsessions, you know you’re getting old.” - Jeanette Winterson.

When VHS Tape Recorders came out I had to buy every
Disney Movie
possible for my kids.

When DVDs came out,

I proceeded to do the same thing.

I've been buying Paperback Books since High School,

thinking that I have a
Library,

where I can fall back to,

for Literary Reference.

Well,

that's what I told myself.

But,

I was Obsessed with owning these things.

I'm only going to use these two examples,

but there has been many more.

Like buying the Playboy Magazine for fifteen years.

Now I go to the Library to find a good Book to read

or a Book on CD to listen to.

If I really feel the need to own some reading material,

I'll just buy it on my

"Nook"

reader and back it up on my computer.

As far as Disney Movies & Shows,

every Star Trek Movie & TV Series,

and all the Doctor Who TV Shows I used to collect,

I can see any of these on Hulu Plus,

Netflix,

Amazon Instant Video,

Red Box,

and Popcorn.

I can get my Anime fix from
Funimation & Crunchyroll.

I'm sorry if I haven't mentioned all the
Internet Video Streaming Websites out there,

because there are thousands of them.

These are the ones I pay for,

to watch what I want,

when I want,

and don't have to throw out books
when they get wet & moldy,

toss VHS Tapes that have been demagnetized,

crack in two DVDs that have been scratched to death,

with all the other
Obsessions
that I was
Addicted
to that took up all the room in the house.

Because my Kid's
and my Grand Kid's possessions is my

Obsession & Addiction 
today.

This is,
The Diary Or Blog Writing,
Jim Hauenstein,

And,

“This diary is my kief, hashish and opium pipe. This is my drug and my vice.”

- Anaïs Nin -

That's my story and I'm sticking to it!

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