I Am Now Waiting For The Fifth Stage

I didn't think that my last article was going to effect me the way it has. It has enlighten me that I am going through the Seven Stages Of Grief. The last time I got to see my wife in the hospital, before she died, I refused to let her go. I was in Denial. Of course, right afterwards I was in the Guilt Stage. I kept thinking, What I could I have done to prevent her from getting sick in the first place? Then I became Angry. I know Temecula Valley Hospital had failed her. I became angry with their lack of empathy and their treatment of her. Just one example; My son was on the phone with his Mom when she first got into the hospital and he could hear a Nurse yelling at her because she didn't have time to waste while she was talking on the phone! I will always recommend getting a second opinion when their Doctors & Nurses give you a recommendation for treatment. Then, after I wrote my article about them, I became Depressed. The loneliness really kicked in when I started writing the post because I had to think about what was really going on in my life. Now I am waiting for the next stage, which some websites are calling The Upward Turn. And I quote one such site, As you start to adjust to life without your dear one, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, and your “depression” begins to lift slightly. This is the part of the grieving process that you’ll start to see the light a bit at the end of the tunnel. It’s a middle ground of all the grief symptoms that you’ll go through but it’s one that you can build upon. If anyone reading this article knows, my life will become calmer and more organize with the passing of Julieta. But I don't want it to. I loved her fiery nature, her unpredictability, her drama, learning how her culture is different then mine, hearing all those vulgarities yelled at me in Tagalog, and so on. All the things in my life that kept boredom from creeping in. I will miss our life together. Rest In Peace Honey and I will see when I get to the other side.

 

This is,

I Am Waiting For The Fifth Stage To Hit Me

But The Two Stages I haven't Mentioned Are

Reconstruction & Acceptance

Jim Hauenstein

 

And,

 

“They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.”
- Tom Bodett -

 

That is my story and I am sticking to it!

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